2018: AN INTROSPECTION – The Gonzo Shark
I woke up this morning knowing that I wasn’t going to have to go to work because of an impending blizzard here in Rhode Island, and that blizzard came. A productive, yet relaxing day was on my agenda. So I started with taking care of my rabbits and dog, lots of coffee, music, and some chores. When that was done I decided to watch a documentary, and another, and then another — the juices of inspiration were flowing strong. I began to think about my goals at the beginning of this new year and I started to reflect on the last few years.
I thought about how far I’ve come in the last four years. In 2012-2013, it was all about drugs and fulfilling my addiction. Nothing else mattered, period. Until November 12, 2013 when I admitted myself into what I will refer to as an “opioid recovery center”, which was undoubtedly the first step in the right direction for me. The next two years were about maintaining a steady job and working towards defeating my addictions. The only thing on my mind was to live a life of sobriety and hope. So I fought and fought, until July 15, 2015 when I went to my last day of rehab. A massive weight was lifted off my shoulders. A feeling of accomplishment and gratitude washed over me the likes of which I had never experienced before. For the first time in my life I had felt like I accomplished something real, something admirable and noble. The whole process taught me the importance of setting a goal and never wavering away from it until you accomplish it!
Over the next two years I began to reconnect with the passions that I had lost for so many years during my addiction cycle. Writing and fitness began to become therapeutic for me and vastly instrumental in being able to maintain my sobriety. Momentum was building for me, I was writing for The Brand, and I was becoming more driven and confident. In fact, life had never been better. In January, 2017 I finally received an excellent promotion from my job and really began to feel like all of my hard work was paying off. I’ve spent the last year fully focused on striving for greatness at my job and less time on writing. It’s time for a change.
So through all of this reflection, and inspiration from hours and hours of documentaries, I began to think about my goals for this year. I’m making really good money and holding it down at my job. I’m living a great life and I’m happy. My passions are what’s important this year — exploring and expanding my love for the arts, writing, filmmaking, and setting goals to REALLY accomplish. It’s about not setting them just to forget them, but doing it because it’s what burns at the center of your being. Living for today and striving for tomorrow are the only things that are important. Being at this very place in my life and completely surrounded by great people and endless inspiration is all I could ask for. By spending the last four years growing, learning, adapting, overcoming, and loving I have built this incredible foundation for the future. I couldn’t be any more thankful for this amazing opportunity to build MY EMPIRE, MY LIFE!
This year is about balance, consistency, intensity, determination, drive, gratitude, strength, commitment, innovation, positivity, experimentation, progress, focus, new beginnings, honesty, love and most importantly, peace. What are we doing to everyday to become the absolute best versions of ourselves? How are we contributing to society and making our world a much better, more peaceful, and unified one? What vibes are we sending out into the universe that is being mirrored back to us? Are they good? These are the questions I ask myself more intimately in 2018. It’s time to really kick it into high gear and reach for the stars because we are all bound for greatness! For me, the foundation has been laid and now the real work begins.
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